Dinner Party: She Comes to the Door

MADDIE BARONE

 

I

When my mother arrives, she brings cake, 
pink and over frosted,
icing spilling down her arms, covering 
the veins of her hands, wrinkles knitting 
a pattern against her wrist. It wears her face.
Bug-eyed and gulping, teeth mismatched or 
sharpened. Her head just a cloud swaying. 


II

A soft covering of mist 
where her nose 
should be. 


III

When she speaks, it’s the cake 
that moves its little mouth. When she sings, 
the cake picks up the harsh melody.  


IV

She’s uninvited but knows 
this house better than anyone. 
Its shutters rusted over and shut, it
pants open mouthed or snarled
as we stand in the doorway. 


V

We lean our heads against the siding. 
The shadows emerge as a sweet 
casting of shade. 


VI

It’s her birthday. There is only 
us. Two halves of the same staring 
at the floor. Our reflections curved back
splintered and rearranged. 


VII

I think 
I wear her eyebrows. Her lips. 


VIII

In the corner of my eye, the door 
elongates. It stretches up through 
the second floor, the roof. It slams
and shakes our feet gone cold. 


IX

Really, the street shouts. Why go through all this 
trouble?
The sidewalks shake their cracked 
spines, rattle their spilling gums. Everything 
is just dirt and the house won’t stop howling.
It tries to slam the door. It tries to shutter 
itself closed.


X

The street goes silent in sympathy. 


XI

She says she’s brought the cake for us
to share. She’s always 
thinking of me. She needs me 
to know this. 


XII

I am trying to tell her to sit down.
To watch the wind roll 
into clouds and send us scattering.
She has her hand up
against mine. 
She keeps looking at the cake. 


XIII

Spilling down her arms, a paste. A sweet 
sticky glue puddled by my feet, egg washed and 
faintly floral. It seems to follow me around.
It’s in the kitchen by the knives. 
It’s in the living room sitting in her favorite 
seat, patterned paisley. 


XIV

It’s in the ceiling 
watching me put away 
the rotted flowers.


XV

It’s in the car when I try to leave. 


XVI

If I close my eyes, she 
leaves an imprint, a long 
hollow note left pricking my 
palms. I feel her in my hands 
flexing in the space she leaves 
behind, fingers bent to hold 
the knife to cut the cake to share 
in this house that no longer belongs
to either of us. 


XVII

Freckled 
and frowning, we put the cake 
to our mouths. It tastes of sugar 
gone cold. Of strawberries picked
and then left in the yard. 


XVIII

She watches me lock the door. 
She is standing in the yard begging 
for the key. 


XIX

Like a glass window, she pushes 
her face right up 
to the clear of my eye. 


XX

Like a window, she tries 
to crack me open. 

 

MADDIE BARONE is a queer poet living in the Southern United States. Their work has appeared in The Madison Review, Miracle Monocle, Pedestal Magazine, and elsewhere.

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